By myself.

we pave our own road. our own journey. what makes us question everything we do is everyone else around us. so how do you differentiate between what's wrong and what's right when there are always always people out there to dictate, to judge, to condemn every single thing you do?

I've spent everyday of the last few months being ripped, torn, judged, broken down, condemned. I've spent every single time explaining, justifying, trying to make people see and I am freaking tired of it. For the past few months, everything I do seems to push everybody away. But all i want to do is just cherish everything. I can no longer have fun without feeling a pinch of guilt either here or there.

I am confused, I am scared, I don't see anything but a blurry view.

This sounds like a desperate cry for something and I can't even pin point what. Accept. just accept. Grow up and move on. yes whatever i am doing now, is solely for myself. I don't have much time. I don't know where it's gone to but i don't have any.

I wish i could just pause. have that thing Hermione has so I can be at all the places at the same time and just make everyone happy. I want to make everyone happy but all I've been doing is make everyone turn against me.

I'm not scared to say that I've probably lost my friends and at the rate i'm going, my family too.

Help me.. I swear at this point I've never felt more alone.