Past, present, future.

My last post was about my past, seeing the way things are going now, I want to share something that can relate to the past. There are two rules regarding this word. Firstly, the past will either make you or break you. The second rule applies directly after, only, the outcome depends on your first choice. Second rule, don't ever let your past get in the way of your future. If you let your past break you, ultimately, it will get in the way of your future and if you choose to make something out of it, it will make you the bigger man, so to say. Walking away doesn't necessarily mean avoiding. Avoiding is not confronting something and be a coward. When you walk away you know you've confronted your biggest challenge and you choose to walk away because you know doing anything else won't do any good rather than harm.

I for one hate confrontations generally but I can't just avoid it because the guilt builds up inside of me and the thing that I do best haunts me. I will worry and when I worry everything falls apart. Being able to actually admit this simply means that I know my faults, too well. It gets overwhelming and consumes me that I develop some sort of OCD in my head. It sucks. So, I do confront. But since I don't feel comfortable being totally in your face, I take long hike. It's time consuming but the job gets done. Worry. Worry can be defined as being uneasy or troubled about something. This is something that bombards my everyday life. What do I worry about, generally? People mostly. There's no reason to worry about what people think about you, but I do for some unknown reason. I get agitated and annoying when I worry. I am learning to let go, nevertheless.

To bring these two things together now. I know there are some things in my past that I cannot bring with my future. I know that, in order to secure my future, I have to bury my past. That's how you move forward isn't it? The past that I think may help in my future, I let become guidelines and warnings, small mental notes. Everyday in your life, you will learn something new, like yesterday, I found out that my iPhone earphones has magnets in them. Anyway, what I meant to say is that your everyday life teaches new experiences and even though there are some that you don't notice consciously, if you were on a routine, you won't do the same thing anymore if it doesn't suit the routine. However, the problem with me, I tend to become very conscious and observant about several things while a few important others are total blind spots to me. I need more training I guess.

I don't want to have something in my past affect my present and ruin my future. I am not a risk taker and when I'm in my comfort zone, I DON'T LEAVE. So, it should be easy to let go of my past right? Just don't let guilt or worry step in my way and I'm good to go.